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 my blog posts are my truth - and can be messy)

Back in the day

The World was known

Today is a new day

We know what we've sewn


What have we done?  What has my generation done?  Paved a path for my children or my grandchildren to starve? Why will they "starve?"  Why do I choose, why do some people  choose cognitive dissonance, over responsibility, when it comes to climate shifts, water shifts, land shifts, animal and protein shifts, and vegetation shifts?

My youngest son, a Scientist, tells me his generation or my Grandkids generation will die.  It sounds dramatic, it sounds like a radical view, it sounds like he is taking this to a place that I can't accept or refuse to accept, on an emotional level, but know it is the absolute damn truth on a Universal level, the level in which he lives. 

I asked him how...what is the demiss of what the baby-boomers (me) have done? I need details beyond the media, beyond my own eye-sight, beyond my own personal view.

He explains to me:  The hazards of Climate Change are further along than a cure/remedy/solution can be.  I talked to him as the Scientist he is, not as my son, who is an eternal optimist, old soul, believer of goodness. I immediately asked him "why have you lost your Hope, your trust and belief of your profession, something that he walked into this World with, and something his Spirituality fosters deeply within him". 

Why do you not believe, especially in your profession, that a "cure" will come?  You work with, test, and then start again, when the beaker says "no" the most basic level of molecules for bone degeneration, for compromised disease, and a cancer cure?

He explains it to me.

He tells me that when that time comes "some" people will choose their own death time.

I joke and say "well can you give me a heads up if this is what you choose."

That isn't funny...that is SO not funny.  Not for someone who worked in Psychiatry for 30 years.  Not for someone who knows better.  Not for someone who suffers from Suicide Guilt.

Dear G-d, I should know better.  

Then I cry.

I apologize.

It isn't enough...

Today at Ike's Challenge Blog (here) is "VEHICLES".  I chose to do a "back in the day" background and to use "back in the day" images from Ike's (Ike's Store here) a "back in the day" Pocket Watch and Vintage Car, which are the white digi images.  

Art is how I cope and Messy is how I tell my story.

It felt right.  

Stay safe, stay real, stay Blessed,
My continued prayers for those who have suffered, suffering or lost a loved one to COVID.



CAS on Friday – 2W, E1, No. 190 - (W1 of 2) AUTUMN 

  • Creative Fingers - 2W, 3E, No totally digital projects - No. 194 (Wk 1 of 2)  -  ALWAYS ANYTHING GOES
  • Jingle Belles - 2W - must be Christmas - SNOW FAR, SNOW GOOD (create projects that celebrate the white fluffy flakes of SNOW … it might be snowmen, snowflakes or just snowfall, but include some snow on your cards